Holy crap, when did you turn a month old? It seems like just last night I was up and down going to the bathroom 50 times or so frustrated because I was so tired and just wanted to sleep but my big belly kept getting in the way.
The adjustment to two kids hasn't been all that hard. Sure - I've had help, but you're such an easy going baby that I've managed pretty well and luckily Autumn hasn't grown to resent either of us yet. No, big sister is pretty crazy about you. She's always checking in to see where you are and asking if you can come with us, whether we may be going. We've all settled into a routine and it's hard to remember what life was like before you got here - I probably had my hands free more and less back aches, but I wouldn't have my family any other way!
You cry a bit more than your big sister did, but I love your little whimper. I can't wait for you to smile because right now you just always look miserable to me, constantly frowning. Unfortunately you have tummy aches quite often in the evenings, but I'm hoping you grow out of them soon - for both our sakes. At a month old you're waking up just twice a night, sometimes less. Very, very eager for you to go down to one feeding a night - momma needs her beauty sleep.
I remember very strongly being so scared how I could love 2 kids. I worried that my time with your sister would suffer, that I'd feel guilty, or how I could interact with a boy after almost 3 years playing dress up and buying everything pink and purple. Now that you're here, I don't worry and I see just how easily you fit into our lives. I love being rough and tough with you. I feel like with Dad, Autumn and you that my family is complete. I have everything I need! Anything else would just be icing on the cake. I love the cars, the sports, the mud and everything coming my way now that I have a little boy.
I'm trying to soak up this newborn stage as much as I can - it's easier to just enjoy you than it was with your sister but don't tell her that! I love watching you grow. Heck, just this past week you've grown up so much. Filling out those chicken legs, getting more shape to your face (though I'm sorry, you've inherited my constant bags under the eyes)... seriously, just yesterday I couldn't breathe because you were kicking my ribs!
Welcome to the family little man.